I am sorry, but I honestly think this is the best thing to do. I love you all to pieces and I love Sebastian too, but lately I feel that I couldn't really bring myself to play anymore. I'm trying to find some inspiration by roleplaying another character at the moment, and I might come back to Sebastian sooner or later, but if I will I think I will need a fresh start.
This said, if you are still interested in roleplaying with me despite my horrible behaviour, just shoot me an ask and I'll reach you through my new blog - I'd absolutely love to.
Thank you to all of you, it's been a blast.